I hope this letter finds you well and that you still have a special someone in your life, be it a dog, cat or our beloved.
I’m trying to abandon all pretense because I know I have nothing to prove to you; you know how I usually am here, damn I’m an asshole right? Well Staz doesn’t think so but you know her, she sees the best. It’s…difficult to simply drop all the usual crap I write about and the style I do so in…
Remember that time Sarah said our guitar playing sounded like rats drowning, that our paintings belonged in a morgue and such? I’m still thinking of that, I bet you’ve forgotten all but the memory of the days.
I don’t want to write for posterity, The Woman said to never write for nostalgia, that’s the worst kind of writing - Do you still follow her? You should, it made you a lot taller. how about Guy? I hope you still have that man-crush on him.
I’m a mess right now for about 60% of the time; lonely, angry, got that eating disorder cropping up, still depressed, still getting no where. Staz said that it was “typical smart kid isolationism” and I fear she may be right; no easy answer here, no personality disorder, nope, I’m just a tad bit too smart and a bit too lonely. So when we see someone being submissive we leap on top of that and then cry that it’s lonely up here.
I must direct your attention to E, I hope you still listen to him when you’re confused about where you’re going, and I hope you still want to be the loveliest of people, tender, kind.
You’d better still be an anarchist, an atheist, an artist, these were the things that were most important to you once upon a time. I hope you still love Staz dearly, though she may be gone now; you may have moved on, become bored, she may have married by now - maybe you’ve married, but don’t tell you you don’t have enough love to still love her for all the crap she helped you with, this’d better not be a shock to you, your life would be a dim fair indeed without her right now. Always remember your first right?
Hey, stay in drugs, eat your school and don’t do vegetables, love is so much more important than seeming smart, stop being so hard on people if you still are.
We forgave ourselves long ago for that deed, I hope you still don’t think about it every day, I certainly do, continue forgiving yourself every day, the pain will go away some day.
There’s so much more I want to stay, but I don’t want to keep you, go hug someone today.
And please stop correcting people’s grammar when you don’t know how to use semi-colons.